She Has A Laptop and She’s Back

Posted on December 26, 2012 by Pam

Merry Christmas from the Hunter Clan 2012

Today is Wednesday December 26th 2012. It is also the day I promised my blog would return from the deep dark black hole of never never land. I received the laptop I have wanted for so long and am now among the many laptop owners of the world. Therefore I no longer belong to one of the many people in the world who no longer have a laptop of my own. Now all of us in our house own a laptop so I’m not sure now what I’m gonna start complaining about now. But I’ll come up with something good. I can promise you that. I spent 5 months griping about this so it’ll be a good one!

I’ve had a hard time this December with my Fibromyalgia. It’s been really strange. The pain has been mild. The fatigue has been increased to a degree. I’m not sure what’s been up with that. I’m suspecting it’s been the cold weather. I have lost 30 pounds since the summer and am still in the process of trying to lose although I am at a standstill. I also have Seasonal Affective Disorder which also adds to my depression. So I have a feeling that plays into the fatigue a lot as well. I’ve moved into taking a Klonipin each day as well. I’m now glad that Christmas is over because that means that spring is on it’s way. Does anyone else feel that way about Christmas? All the busy busy busy and go go go and travel travel travel and cold cold cold is all too much for me. Anyone else feel that way? I’m mostly just glad when it’s over and life can get back to normal. I’m a normal kind of girl. It’s just all overwhelming to my body. Overwhelming is not something I can take for too long.

Michael and Lauren have been home for a couple of weeks. It’s been really nice. I love how well they are getting along. Lauren is leaving Friday to go to Pennsylvania to spend a week with her college roommate. I will miss her. Michael still has two weeks at home. They both finished their first semester of college learning a lot about how to live alone, how to make the transition of high school friends to college friends, maturing into adulthood, being responsible for themselves, how to study on their own without me or daddy prompting them and about how to budget their slim finances. Those are a lot of lessons to learn in just a few months. But they are learning as they go.

Well, we are all freezing in a blizzard in Ohio. I wanted to get out and shop some today. But the weather says I’m staying in so I’m staying in. I’m hoping to use some of the quiet time today to work on some blog updates here. So if today is your first day here feel free to kick back and look around for a bit. Since I’m finally back things will be changing. If you are finally coming back with me here, WELCOME BACK! I look forward to making things a little more pleasant around here. I’m glad to be back! I’m glad to be back WITH YOU!

Cheers to September

Posted on September 1, 2011 by Pam

August’s 3 in 30 goals have rounded out pretty well. It wasn’t a huge success. But you know what….I’m human! I am working on accepting that a little more every day. Today is the first day of September and time for a new set of goals. I’m looking forward to it cooling off some so I might get motivated to get outside more often. If I’m feeling up to it the sunshine makes me feel so much better. Depression has been sneaking up on me this week. I’m working on that. So for that reason my first goal for September is:

1 – Get outside for some amount of time each day. I love being home. I’m a homebody and sometimes go days without stepping foot outside. I want that to change this month. This is the time that my seasonal depression starts getting cranked up. So hopefully this goal will help to hold it off as long as possible.

2 – Work diligently on my Bible study with Ron. The study is going really well but the lessons are so long that it discourages me. I just need to discipline myself to do some each day so it’s not so overwhelming. When I start getting overwhelmed by anything it doesn’t usually end well for me or anyone around me. So this is one area I need to get a grip on.

3 – Hmmmmmmmm seems like there was something else I was gonna include in the goals for September……Hmmmmmmmmmmm…..what could it be???????????? AHHHHHHHHH YES!!!!!! The laundry! SIGH…….do at least one load of laundry a day. Yeah, THAT!

So, here’s to September – CHEERS!! Off to link up! Come join us!

So Sad Because of S.A.D

Posted on April 22, 2011 by Pam

Nashville has had too many gray sky days this month. It just kills my mental state. I have Seasonal Affective Disorder and find the endless gray days of winter and spring especially difficult to get through. My depression is always lying right under the surface ready to pop through at any opportunity. The gray days of Middle Tennessee offer it plenty of opportunities. I long for the sunny days of May through September. My emotions are a roller coaster at best most days. But when the sky is gray I feel like I’m struggling just to SEE the surface of the earth above me from the hole I find myself in. Today is yet another gray gloomy day in Nashville. I don’t understand S.A.D but I certainly know how it feels.

When I’m wallowing in the pool of grayness I find that the pictures I have taken in the past of beautiful sunny days and the blue skies that go along with them do seem to lift my spirits to a degree. I love to share those pictures with others because I don’t know who else needs the reminder that there are still days like that. The darkness of the gray days kind of seep into your being – some grayness into each pore until eventually you can FEEL the grayness. What you SEE seems to be covered in gray? What you TOUCH seems to feel gray? Sometimes even what you TASTE doesn’t have the same flavor. Your mind is foggy with gray and it feels like you have to think through the gray.

So, as you can probably guess, today is yet another gray day in Nashville. I long for the sun. I long for the Vitamin D to chase all the gray away. Until then I will attempt to occupy my mind with something to break the S.A.D cycle. Some days that may take more energy than I have. But I must try. Will you try with me? A prayer perhaps? Share your experience so I feel less alone? I hear happy birds singing outside. It would appear that God is already trying to lift my spirit through the sweet singing of His most delicate of creation. Maybe I will go out and listen to the little one sing. Maybe a bit of his song will find it’s way into my heart too. Until there, I will share this beautiful sunset picture from our last cruise in November. It will help me (and hopefully you too) remember sunnier days of the past till the sun returns for another visit.

I think I will also hop over to the Skywatch Friday site and see if the sun is shining somewhere around the world even if it isn’t shining here in Nashville. Join me?